3:41 Am

It’s 3:41 am, and I am sitting and listening to some Sufjan Stevens in the Singles office and thinking about life in general.
Tonight was my last Worship@full.volume and Res Life Staff meeting at Bradley. Its really bitter sweet… I’ve loved going to Worship at Bradley for the past five years, rarely missing. Its been a sort of church home when I haven’t had a church home. I’ve been going to Vineyard with Liz since we’ve started dating, but I don’t know if I’d call it my church yet. It still feels like I am going to Elizabeth’s church, not our church. Maybe that just means its not the church that I’m supposed to end up at.

Totally off topic, but I just received an e-mail from the Smith Career Center (at 3:43 am). Am I the only one who finds that slightly strange? Also, I found this website of an interesting comedy group today. I think I want to start one myself. And, speaking of jobs, congrats to Jason for the job and the apartment. I’d be lying if I said I wasn’t a bit jealous.

The last staff meeting was interesting. We went to Old Chicago for it, which was great (its hard to argue with a place that appreciates beer). Its not that the meeting itself was interesting (it wasn’t), its that I haven’t always enjoyed being on staff. Actually, the job itself is something I dislike. But… I think I’m going to miss it. Probably not in the next few months, but I guaruntee that 6 months from now, I’m going to miss it. Its something that has taken up 7 of my last 8 semesters here. Its just strange to leave it. This next month is going to be very strange for that reason. I’m leaving staff, and not going back to summer camp. I’ve spent the last 3 summers at Camp Duncan (and many other summers somehow involved at different camps, either working or being a camper). I love camp, and its going to be strange because all my best friends are going to be there this summer, and I won’t be.

Maybe it just means its time for me to grow up. I think that’s the scariest thought in the world.